News and such...

Sorry for the lack of entries, but life has caught up to me. First off, I can't surf at work. They monitor the internet usage, and seeing as how that's supporting me I'm not gonna jeopardize it. Combine that with school, etc and I am just one busy busy girl!! A. had his 6 month appt today, and according to their scales he's up to 15 lbs 9 oz. That puts him at the 25th percentile, not bad for a kid who started out at 3 lbs!

Big news is my baby brother is *finally* coming home!!! He's been stationed in Japan for about 3 years now, I haven't seen him since then. He's visiting dad and his inlaws, but will be here on Tuesday. I will be meeting his wife and son for the first time. I hate meeting new people, I'm always so awkward and end up either sounding snobby or stupid. I had a stutter as a kid, and the only time it registers now is if I get really really nervous (which is every time I'm around people I don't know) I want to like her, if only for the fact that I want my brothers and I to remain close. It seems kind of weird that I spent most of my life with one group of people and now that I'm 'grown up' (term used very loosely folks) I'm supposed to transfer my life to an entirely new set of people. It feels like I'm in a metaphorical ill fitting outfit. I'm trying to adjust to this new status quo, but it doesn't quite 'fit'. Maybe it's more like a new pair of shoes, it just needs to be broken in.

I was thinking earlier about my marriage. My husband and I have had it rough for pretty much our whole married life, job wise at least. Now that I'm working again, I'm seeing all these 'successful' men, and I've wondered what my life would be like if I was married to one of them. Then it hit me, part of the reason my husband and I are together, comfortable with each other is *because* of what we have gone through. No we don't have the passionate whirlwind life that I so naively imagined when I was younger. We do have a stable loving relationship. I have a husband who knows what kind of mood I'm in just by looking at me, we can have entire conversations without saying a word. The external pressures (money) have forced us to bond together, and I think have made us closer for it. We now appreciate what we have all the more, because we know what it's like to be without. Hopefully, this new job will be the first step in us getting more financially secure as that has really been the major 'problem area' of our marriage so far. I can only hope that our life will continue to grow together, and that one day we can look back at this early struggling and laugh. Maybe all the crud we've gone through so far has built us up one big whopping kharmic payoff. Hey I can dream can't I?

yay!

Well I'm now gainfully employed. I think it's pretty cool so far (only been a week). The best perk by far is the hours. I get out by 4:30 every night, and during the summer I get Fridays off. Purty darn spifferific if you ask me...Well off to homework I go.

Oh Well

Like the complete spaz I am, I bombed the test. I passed the financial portion, but they required a 90% on the English portion. I got 88%. I'm actually rather depressed so I think I'm going to slink off and have my very own I'm a Loser party.

PANIC!!!!

ARGHHH!!! I have an interview on Monday for a job that sounds great is close to home and has awesome benifits (one of which is Fridays off all summer, with pay. How kick ass is that?), and now the University I'm attending wants me to come in to do a civil service test tomorrow at 7:30 a.m. This would be so completely awesome because I would have fully paid tuition if I got it. I'm scared to death. I'm such a dweeb during interviews. I can never think of the correct thing to say, and end up coming off like I've been whacked in the head a couple of times. ARGHHH!!!! That and one of the tests is on budgeting. What??? Huh??? Please pray I don't make a complete ass of myself!!!!

Ok, Ok...

All right. I'm a bad Bee, I admit it. I promised to update y'all a month ago. Whip me with a wet noodle. Anyway a lot has gone on, mainly with jobs. It seems that Ohio is the land of the cursed with my family. We keep getting these "great" jobs, that keep disappearing. Money is very very scarce right now. Oh well. As I don't want a pity party, on to good news!

My boys are great! B2 is a tank of a 3 1/2 year old. We had him in to the Dr. last weekend (strep, my poor boy!) and he's 48 lbs, and around 50". He's huge! The kid is going to be taller than I am by the time he's 5 (and I'm 5'7"!!!) Other than the strep and a bad case of the 'kindergarden crud' as my husband calls it, he's as healthy as a horse. Emotionally things are a little rocky with him, only because he is so pushing his limits. I swear this kid will never take no for an answer. I suppose the trait could be useful in his adulthood, but there are some days I feel like ripping out chunks of hair and fleeing stark naked down the street. (How's that for a visual image!) A is doing awesome as well. Last month my little porker was up to 12 lbs! (Hey it's impressive when you remember he was 3 lbs. 13 oz.) I'll find out his current weight tonight at his monthly RSV vaccination (which is coincidently the only preemie related health issue we're dealing with.) I love to see the differences in my boys. B2 looks like me, dark hair dark eyes, but has his dad's personality (very outgoing, exuburent). A on the other hand looks like mom and my husband, very blonde, pale, bright blue eyes, yet he has my temperment. He's so introspective and he's only 5 months!! He will literally sit for hours holding my finger and studying it! B2 grins all the time, but when A grins, you feel like you've earned something. W (DH) has made a joke the B2 will be enlisted, while A is officer material. That's about it for now, I will try and get more pics of the boys up, but I'm making no promises as our digital camera has apparently grown legs (and we're on dial up. I *hate* dial up)

Well then...

It's been a while. I'd like to say thanks to Cat and Erin, who despite my extended absence both remembered me this Christmas. We had to turn the 'net off as DH got laid off. He's still looking for something, but we think we may have the net thing worked out now. (kinda, if I disappear again you'll know why) Will update in full later, but just suffice it to say, I am alive, kids are good, family is good and hoping for a much better year in 2005!